Out of the Darkness

sun breaking through dark storm clouds

This year my daughter is serving on the Board of Directors for the American Foundation for Suicide Prevention – Florida Panhandle Chapter. The chapter is holding its annual Out of the Darkness Walk on Sept. 24 at St. Andrews State Park in Panama City. If you have been touched by the loss by suicide of a […]

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Thought train

old wooden train trellis

The 3:05 roared into the Hart Avenue station, smoke and soot spewing from the undercarriage and engine stacks. When the doors swooshed open, afternoon passengers spilled from the cars like a swarm of worker ants. Porters appeared with bellman’s carts, brass shined and the signature red carpet freshly cleaned, ready to load trunks and suitcases […]

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Daymare

traffic tunnel

The recliner was pushed so far back that its occupant’s head was lower than his feet. He gripped the armrests to keep from sliding off onto the floor. “Are you sure you’re comfortable?” Dr. Holman sat in an adjacent chair, debating with himself whether to toss some of the couch cushions beneath Cyril’s head, lest […]

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Every other Thursday

old office reception chairs

There wasn’t enough space in the garage for the old waiting room chairs, so Eugene left them out front, the bucket seats filling up with dirty rainwater that poured off the tarpaper roof. He remembered always sitting in a yellow chair while he waited at Dr. Wilford’s for one of his therapy sessions. After Dr. […]

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Personal prison

stone prison16

Locked in a prison of my own making. Iron and stone bind me, confine me. Mortared by fear and doubt, Bars and locks forged in misery. Serving my sentence in solitude, Believing I must shield those I love From the pain of quilt by association. I can never be someone to be proud of? Stigma […]

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Armed for battle

under highway bridge

I mentioned to some friends that lately I’ve been feeling out of sorts, and thought maybe my thyroid levels were off. I have Hashimoto’s which means that little butterfly shaped gland in my neck is a slacker, and doesn’t work so well. My regular physicians moved, so I was meeting a new doctor on Tuesday […]

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